A month before or after

It is 19th of August 2012 today, a month after my university graduation. I remember I said on the day that I would not leave anything unsaid, and there I was trying in vain to speak out the words I had been dying to let out for years. A month has gone and who knows what would happen to me in a month's time if we fast forward to 19th September 2012.  I may be sleeping, or playing games, or hanging out at a dinner, or for the highest level of confidence I will be working relentlessly during the welcome week.

Therefore I decided today I will say whatever I need to say, whatever I have been hiding for all those years, or perhaps just some random stuff to random people.

This, however, may have a negative effect. The message might not be delivered with the right tone or under the right circumstances, which will lead to the loss of certain important people in my life. But you have to risk it to get the biscuit.

There is nothing wrong with feeling vulnerable because vulnerability shows us how important one truly is.

PS: Happy birthday mom, tomorrow!

Graduation

It has been a few weeks since my graduation, but I still can't seem to find any word to draw out some description.

I am happy, grateful, honoured, and most of all glad to have graduated and have got my parents with me. They had never ever been around on any big occasion of my life that I did not know what to expect. Nonetheless, they appeared when it counted.

To be even more honest, I am not the kind of having a close family relationship; in fact, quite towards the other side of the scale. But I could feel the intensive emotions running around on the day through them. I could see the moments they were running around taking photos of me, even though the photos did not look as good as I would love them to be, because they were all shaking. I could see all the hard work and difficulties in life that they had been through to give me that moment in mine. And I could see the unspoken love.

Thank you. :)