17/10/2011

Just a few lines from me to update my life in Blogger's.

What can I say? I finally found her, with everything I have ever dreamt about (age, family, love, happiness, etc.). She may not be a perfect girl, but she is just perfect for me. :)

I Love You, My Dear!

16

16 months and I am ready to let it go :)

Source Code

It's strange to realise that I tend to let my mind go over my limit to see things I hardly see after a great movie. Source Code is that kind of film, not very easy to understand every little detail, but decent enough to build an incredible but common concept.

What would you do if you have 8 minutes to live?

To me, it's rather nearly 2 months for me to be in Vietnam; and what next? I am still very uncertain. Would this be the last time I see these people, these things, sleep in my own bed, etc. I know I have complained much about this but there is always a limit. I complain because I am still here. What if I am gone?

This could be the last summer in Vietnam for me, though I have told myself not to plan for such a long period because things are usually not the way we expect.

"what if", these two words are just so strong that they give you the idea of what would happen if you don't appreciate your moment.

Library during cramming period

Seriously, all the libraries in the world are for books, journals, reference and a very reasonable daily use; not for a massively rocketing number of students coming and sleeping there.

Stop complaining about your university unless you "do" have a plan to study. Moreover, if you do not like it here, why bother coming in the first place?

Peace out, dickheads!

Funny!

I am not incredibly lucky to meet the love of my life in uni and it does not mean you have any right to comment about my love life. Also, this does not bother at all because it will be taken as a form of jealousy that you cannot score as many as I can (since you're kinda gay!).

The social network

So, here is the thing, I seem to not want to expand my initial idea in blog form anymore. It is not that I can no longer write or do not have time to write, I just do not feel interested in writing such. A few lines of words should be enough, in the future, to remind me what I have wanted to say to myself on those days in a retrospective view.

Isn't it sad to re-read your own blog and there are only couples of sentences?!

I guess I am just moving from one extreme to another. I used to write 1 or even 2 posts per day in Yahoo 360 and my total is over 500. Sometimes, I was angry, I was mad, I was in love, I was out of love, all sorts of feelings, I wrote it out. It doesn't have to be like that.

I remember I once told a friend of mine that whatever you write out there, it matters because it affects other people and it brings the first impression to others' minds even when they haven't met the one whom you're writing about.

So what is the purpose of a blog? You still hide something from it, after all!

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On another note to self, I just watched The Social Network. Some like, some don't.

The idea is even though you may have 1 billion friends, you may still be the most unpopular person at one place. I do not want to refer to the line "you don't get to 500 million friends without making a few enemies" because they are different concepts.

Rumours, gossips, hatred and jealousy; they are out there aiming at you as soon as you start to step up. I admit many whom I used to call friends have walked away, because they don't like me, because I have higher marks, because I don't party, etc. Some, I don't bother. Some, they did play a part of my first year.

I even scare away people because I might have cared too much. And if it ever happens to you, I would rather scare you off right now. But I know, the girl out there, whom people refer to my "the one", is the one who is absolutely ok with it...

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Good bye April =)

:)

It's time to let go every single thing.

I'm still amazed at the fact I still care about such friend(s) for the past year...

26/4 :)

10

I seriously don't have much time for blog and facebook, or at least I'm supposed to. Exams are coming close and half of the holiday has gone. But I don't think I can keep this happy moment from this place, where I intend to call home.

I found a friend back in elementary school today. It must be 10 years, I would say. In fact, she was my first crush *laughing*. 8 years old, we were. And today, we talked as if it'd been just a few months ago. We still remember those little things. We don't look much different (or evolved) compared to the past.

Though, I guess a lot of things have been going on but it's time to catch up.

Year 2

So here I am, at the very last day of the second term of my second year. Effectively, it's the end of the second chapter of my Exeter journey, apart from exams. It has been a whole year of changes.

- I have lost all the motivation to work since last weekend. I did nothing but sleeping, movies and basketball.

- I craved for things: external hard drives (to compensate the fact that the new laptop only has 320gb instead of 500gb I used to have), a new pair of shoes (which I already got) and every single thing I would have bought, had I had enough money. Things do not leave...

Speaking of which, I am pretty happy to know I can buy a laptop hard drive case for £5 which will allow me to use my current hard drive 320gb as an external storage and use the 500gb one from the old laptop for this new friend.
I have a genuine reason to buy a new pair of shoes because the old one broke down.

- I finally got to download HP7 and just indulged myself with that for an early night. I switched all the lights off just before 9pm, which is extraordinarily unusual.

- I am still waiting for a so-called rejection letter that I was meant to receive on Monday. Would I get in? I am dying to get in and if all the motivation I have lost is what it takes, I give you all. I promise I will work double! Because I love it and I pray for this...

- If I ever get it, would I be happy?...

- Friends have started to say goodbyes. Well, that would be me, by this time next year...

Wednesday 30th March

Friday 18/03/2011

Hmm, happy birthday dad, 19/03/2011. Sorry that I'm not gonna be there for a few more years on your birthday and hope you're always healthy. That's all I'm asking for right now even though there're still tons of thing I wish you could change. I guess, it's something I have to accept because you're who you're.

Your gift is already here and will be posted up to London and hopefully you will get it by the end of April.

It's funny enough to think that I always spend a massive amount of money near your birthday, not for you, haha. I remember I signed the contract for my lovely phone exactly 52 weeks ago, Friday 19/03/2010. My laptop screen died a few more weeks later.

Now, I'm buying a new laptop for myself. And it, again, all comes down to the very factual truth that I always have to consider how much you would like me to spend rather than I like it or not.

It's on its way to me anyway...

Happy birthday!

Why we do what we do, and how we do it better?

Where is my origin?

Nothing much to update really.

It is just unbelievable to see how material blinded people are, especially those you know you cannot despite...

A rare entry in Vietnamese

Đơn giản chỉ là những lúc ko còn biết phải nói ra làm sao hay nghĩ như thế nào.

AVH là cái gì ấy nhỉ? Dần dần, AVH trở thành 1 cái mác ngta gán cho đơn giản chỉ dùng để nói về những gì ngta nghĩ về AVH.
- AVH ko bao giờ bệnh.
- AVH lúc nào cũng công việc.
- AVH ko bao giờ biết buồn. Đơn giản vì AVH nhiều gái.
- AVH là ng bỏ gái chứ còn khuya mới có ai có đủ thời gian để mà bỏ AVH.
- AVH... này... nọ... kia, nhiều lắm.

Uh, thì ko phải hòan tòan sai. Nhưng cũng ko nhất thiết hòan tòan đúng.
Cũng đâu đấy có những ngày ho sù sụ, những ngày cơm tối 12g đêm 1g sáng, hay thậm chí những ngày ko cơm tối vì đã quá mệt để mà tự nấu cho bản thân 1 cái gì đấy.
Cũng đâu đấy energy drink và chocolate để sống sót với khối lượng công việc mà tự bản thân gồng lên để gánh lấy.
Cũng đâu đấy những ngày mệt nhòai, bật một phim gì đó rồi ngủ khi nào ko hay.
Cũng đâu đấy đi này đi nọ vì công việc, có chương trình tốt, có lúc không, nhưng rồi cũng chỉ là một mình chia vui buồn cùng bản thân.
Và uh, nhiều gái. Chỉ đơn giản rằng tất cả mọi ng đều xứng đáng để đc đối xử như họ là câu trả lời vì khi ấy, họ chính là đáp án tạm. Nhưng có lẽ, cái đáp án tạm ấy ko thích hợp với câu hỏi dài mà mỗi một cá nhân thg đặt ra.

Và đến cuối ngày, ta nhận ra rằng dù mục tiêu có hay ho cỡ nào, kế họach có kĩ càng đến đâu, đi đến đích cuối cùng một mình ko đồng nghĩa với thành công hay hạnh phúc...

Good evening the world...

Sometimes in life, you wake up and wonder if you can go back to sleep or merely what time it is.

Sometimes, you feel so exhausted that you hit your cosy sleep-territory at any free minute you manage so squeeze in.

Sometimes, you even wish you could go to sleep without worrying about work.

Why do you have to work that much?

It is, of course, because you were free. You did not have a girlfriend or any special one to care for or to go out with. You were too free. You decided to take work just only to make it up for your evil-minded time.

And now, you enjoy working incredibly much that you cannot afford to have a girlfriend, or let's just say you cannot manage to find one. I am sure you know how to reduce your workload for the love of your life one day.

You work for other reasons. You work towards your aims and objectives you set for your minimum-4-year journey to this foggy island. And perhaps, you are not able to see the vision of your efforts paying off in the future, you still understand if you do not work, you will never achieve what you want.

Talking about the adventure to find the true other half, it is not your top priority, not at all at this point of time. Having said that, you know how good it feels to have someone to care for and probably to be cared.

You walk home, some days, and wonder why you have to go home. Apart from the cheap meals you can prepare yourself at home instead of eating out, your bedtime, doing your work in your quality time, I guess you come home for nothing.

Sometimes, you need to knock your brain down for a little while...

Arrival

I was just gonna wait for tomorrow, Tuesday, to post it but here I am, in the very last minutes of Monday. Although there will be so much to write about tomorrow (even deeper) as it's Tuesday (again), it's 11-01 (some funny number I make up with) and these stories I'm about to tell, it's not gonna be as much exciting as it is now. Hence, I guess I'm gonna spill it.

1/ The first paper went well.
2/ One of my favourite teachers from high school, whom I consider my so-called big sister, got married yesterday, 09/01/2011.
3/ The first T-shirt I bought with my own money just arrived today. It may sound surprisingly weird to the girls but I don't usually buy those. I saw this T-shirt 2 years ago but never bought it until it was sold out.
4/ I watched 2 amazing movies in the last two days. I spent ages starring at Music and Lyrics a while ago and decided not to buy it somehow. It is magnificent. I also put 21 at the top of my movie list and never had the chance to download it, look for it on the internet to be precise.
5/ I decided to go for another competition by KPMG. I start to wonder why I can't just put off one offer from work or my life is merely about working, which always wears me out but motivates me every single minute. The latter sounds much more appealing...

And that's it. Hah, I actually got through those quite fast.

You know, it's funny when you think you can write something big, inspiring or critical; but you end up with only a list of interesting points that you can't even dig any deeper into them. It is absolutely not a big deal though. This is called blog, not online newspaper. This is the place where you drop down a few lines after an exhausting day merely to remind you about that day when you look back. This is the place you write up some stupid stories merely to realise they're not stupid at all. Even the tiniest and simplest idea can grow from deep down in your mind. Give it some time. This is BLOG, where we should let our ideas flow and don't hold them back. This is a place to share.

You want something more professional? Try newspaper or online articles. They certainly give you more important, world-changing and analytical pieces of reading. I'm, however, not that kind of writer and therefore cannot write something I'm asked to (unless it's essays :D). Be more open to your blog since it's not a place where your ideas are scrutinised :).



Added: Oh, one more thing. I just sold my Satio :).

Old me?

So, another year has gone and I'm sitting here, wondering how I have lived my life so far.

There's one obvious thing that I still don't want to be "normal" in terms of being "like" other people. I still try to say happy birthday, merry Christmas and happy new year in the most unique way as possible to those who I really care. At least, this is the only way I can tell them that they're important in my life. I still don't have the urge to write something to mark New Year. It just happens that I have done quite a lot today. And remember, it's Saturday not Tuesday.

I have also realised that this is only the 60th entry although I started Blogspot in December 2009. Well, it may not be a big deal to you but to me, 60 means "hardly writing". I just can't feel the way I felt with Yahoo!360, where my entries number are around 500 (excluding deleted posts) in 2 - 3 years. I guess sometimes you just can't find the same feelings you had for your first one in any of the later ones, you merely need to move on and accept what is the most comfortable and happiest for you.

I accepted Blogspot as it is a great place for me to share my feelings with the others. Nonetheless, I admit I still have another blog on Opera where all the dark secrets are kept for myself. Hmm, I'm wondering why I can't just put things in one place, use one camera, blah... Perhaps, my life is complicated enough to put up that many layers and I'm glad you're here since it means you've already gone through many layers. One or two of whom are even incredibly close to the real me... :)

I tidied my room today, not carefully but thoroughly. I mean I wasn't that meticulous on any particular thing in my room but I went through every single thing and arranged them into an organised look it should be after a few lazy revision days at home.


It is a little weird when people often tidy up or say goodbye to certain things by the end of the year. It was, however, the beginning of the year to me. Whether a year starts or ends doesn't matter; whether you have changed, moved on or cling to those moments in the past does.

I am still childish at some points. I'm still rushing into things merely because I don't want to miss out any opportunity in life. I'm sure no one would want to think back and say "I could have". Neither do I, especially when I already let it happen... But sometimes, there is something which is so important that I just cannot rush into it. If waiting is what it takes, the door is always open.

I changed my wallpaper in order to have a fresh look for my laptop for another year.

Anything else?

Well, my 2010 has already been expressed in photos, hence no. Talk less and do more. And if you ever want to see how people see the world, look at their photos. To be honest, photos are not merely memories, they can tell you a lot about a person if you're willing to.



For the first day of the second decade in the 21st century, 1/1/2011.
And for the year I had the best Christmas' Eve, Boxing Day and New Year's Eve.